Resentment is growing

I've been with my girlfriend for 10 years. I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm in the stage of my life where I want more, I want a future, I want a career, and I want her to be there for me. When I'm stressed out working 70+ hours a week, I wish I didn't have to ask or beg for help.

I missed opportunities.. so many opportunities. I became reliant on her help. I can't do it solo.. but then when I'm begging for help & denied.. I'm reminded of this growing resentment.

I realized if something inconveniences her.. I have to ask and beg.

I've been asking for years for affection, love, physical touch, to feel like the only woman in her life. Maybe she changes for a little bit, and we end up exactly in the same cycle.

She wants me in this box. A box she can control. A box where she's comfortable. A box I feel suffocated in.

I'm scared. I'm scared of the future.. I don't want to feel to betrayed anymore.