Playing the Rola

I’m so tired of being made to feel like all I am is a role. It don’t even sink in till a recent argument where he told me:

Your a mild mannered wife and better start acting like it

Like I am so much more than your wife. The only reason we were arguing is because I snapped at him in the morning. But I only snapped because I was tired of the expectation of doing everything. Meal plans, shopping and all the housework. I get he stressed with work but I’m having to work so many extra hours at the moment. Where’s my support?

I supported him through years of unemployment where he barely lifted a finger. Why is it i am being made to feel like I should be grateful he has a job and constitutes to bills? Like you’re an adult? Adults also need to do the housework?

Sick of things being thrown in my face then being told he doesn’t rely on me or doesn’t need shit from me? Fine make your own damn dinner for a change or maybe do your own washing.

I’m not sure if he likes me or is it just liking having a wife. Like I don’t need princess treatment. I don’t need you to buy me stuff. I need you to be a partner. I need to feel like my needs matter too.

Started up at the gym and he’s tired from that and I get that. But I’m going to so now I work 6 days a week, go to the gym and have to do everything else. I really o going to the supermarket to get any real undisturbed alone time.

Isn’t even interested in my weight loss. Like yes mostly I’m doing it for me but there’s a part of me doing this for you. So I’m better for you, so I can keep your attention so you don’t start watching tik toks when I’m talking to you. So you don’t call me boring or make it seem like I’m always the problem. I lost over a stone and when I told him I got a hm in response. Like you don’t need to be my cheerleader but a bit of encouragement may be nice?

Maybe I am the problem maybe I want to much. Also sick of me lol